Warning.....

THAT'S RIGHT LET ME WARN YOU IF YOU ARE INJURED AT WORK, MAKE SURE YOU NEVER SMILE, DON'T EVER ATTEND YOUR CHILDS EVENT OR CLAP YOUR HANDS......APPARENTLY WHEN YOU HAVE A NECK/HEAD INJURY YOUR NOT SUPPOSE TO DO ANY OF THE ABOVE & YES EVEN WITH THE DR TELLING YOUR SPOUSE TO GET YOU OUT NOW & THEN SO YOU DON'T GET INTO A DEEP DEPRESSION OR NOT GET ANY EXERCISE...DON'T DO IT.....THOSE SNEAKY SLIMY PEOPLE WATCHING EVERY MOVE YOU MAKE & EVEN VIDEO TAPING YOUR CHILDREN (WHICH I WOULD BELIEVE TO BE AGAINST THE LAW). YUP IT'S BEEN A HORRIBLE WEEK & THIS JUST PUT THE CHERRY ON TOP!!!!!!!! OH YES & YOUR CO-WORKERS/BOSS THEY AREN'T YOUR FRIENDS....THERE OUT TO GET YOU TO...SO BASICALLY MY WORD OF ADVICE IS NEVER TRUST ANYBODY & DON'T LET YOUR GUARD DOWN EVER!!!! I FEEL SO BETRAYED THAT IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY, I'VE FOREVER HAD TRUST ISSUES DUE TO HORRIBLE CHILDHOOD & I FOR ONCE THOUGHT I MIGHT HAVE A FRIEND I WAS TAUGHT TO BE WRONGED AGAIN.....EVERY ONE WANTS TO PREACH JUST STAY POSITIVE...HMMMMM HOW DOES ONE DO THAT????YOU CAN'T TRUST ANYONE. BET I WASN'T SUPPOSE TO BE SITTING BY OUR DAUGHTERS SIDE AS SHE HAS BEEN IN & OUT OF THE HOSPITAL ALL WEEK LONG. OWELL........THAT'S RIGHT FRIDAY NIGHT KRYSTAL WAS RUSHED TO THE ER DUE TO HIGH FEVER (SHE HAD JUST FINISHED TWO ROUNDS OF ANTIBIOTICS) DRS' COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHY SHE WOULD HAVE HIGH FEVER, SO STREP & INFLUENZA TEST COME BACK NEGATIVE.....BLOOD WORK REVIELEDHER WHITE COUNT WAS 25,800....EXCESSIVELY HIGH, NORMAL IS UP TO 10,000. SO MORE RUSHING AROUND TO DRAW MINI SODA BOTTLES FULL OF BLOOD....HAVE TO WAIT 24 HRS FOR THOSE RESULTS.....SUNDAY NIGHT RUSHED TO HOSPITAL BY AMBULANCE HEART RATE HAD BEEN AT 113 & ABOVE FOR OVER 24 HRS...SPINAL TAP DONE. THEY STILL CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHY SHE IS SO SICK.....EVERYDAY EXCEPT TODAY WE'VE BEEN IN & OUT OF MANY DIFFERENT DR'S TO TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHY SHE IS SOOOOO SICK. MONDAY IF SHE'S NOT BETTER ANOTHER SPINAL TAP TO BE DONE, SHE'S ON ROUND 3 OF ANTIBIOTICS EVEN STRONGER THAN ANY OF THE OTHERS. POOR KID I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYONE SO SICK & LIFELESS. THANK GOD FOR MY FAMILY & 1 TRUE FRIEND THROUGH ALL THIS...THE ONLY REASON I KNOW THIS PERSON IS A TRUE FRIEND IS BECAUSE THIS PERSON HAS BEEN FOR ALMOST 20 YEARS NOW & NEVER HAS TURNED THERE BACK NO MATTER WHAT. DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT ANY OF THEM....LOVE YOU ALL!!!
I GUESS THE ONE THING THAT IRRITATES ME ABOUT THE ABOVE MENTIONED IS I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG, I'VE LOST ALOT OF MY ABILITIES & LIVE ON DRUGS & PATCHES EVERYDAY NOW. I HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE, BUT DON'T LIKE FEELING "RAPED" OF MY PRIVACY. DOING WHAT MY DR'S ADVISE ME TO DO, DON'T/WOULDN'T FAKE ANY OF THIS SHIT....I WOULD LOVE A DAY WITH NO PAIN...YES I HAVE TO BEYOND DRUG MYSELF SO I CAN GO OUT TO THE REAL WORLD AM I PROUD OF THAT..NO...I HATE MEDS! I HATE THIS LIFE, I HATE THAT I CAN'T BE A GOOD WIFE/MOTHER, I HATE THE BURDEN I'VE PUT ON TIM(LIKE HE NEEDED MORE). I HATE THAT THIS WORKMANS COMP CRAP IS PUSHING ME INTO A PLACE I DIDN'T WANT TO VISIT AGAIN...HATE....PURE HATE & ALOT OF REGRET FOR LETTING CERTAIN PEOPLE INTO MY LIFE......NEVER WILL IT HAPPEN AGAIN....NEVER DO I WANT THAT HURT OR BETRAYEL..

counting down to spring......

I SO CANNOT WAIT FOR SPRING TO BE HERE SO I CAN OPEN UP THESE DOORS & LET THE FRESH AIR IN & THE GERMS OUT!!! JUST GOT BACK FROM BRINGING ZAC MAN TO THE DRS....POOR KID HAS BEEN SO SICK SINCE MILITARY BALL. TODAY HE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BRONCHITIS AGAIN! 3 WEEKS OF NON STOP SICKNESS FOR HIM, HE'S LOST WEIGHT, HE GETS UP LONG ENOUGH TO EAT A FEW BITES & THEN OFF TO BED AGAIN. LAST WEEKEND TIM & I WENT TO MASS TO VISIT MY BROTHER, IT WAS TO GET ME AWAY FROM ALL THIS SICKNESS & GIVE ME A BREAK FROM ALL DRS' ETC....THE RIDE WAS SO PAINFUL JUST WAS NOT ENOUGH DRUGS TO MAKE IT MORE COMFORTABLE! WELL MONDAY WE GOT SLAMMED WITH A HUGE STORM, TUES WE DID A FEW THINGS, THEN ATE AT SUBWAY & MY HUBBY GETS FOOD POISONING!!!!! OMG ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME KNOWS THE THOUGHT OF FOOD POISONING JUST FREAKS ME OUT....NEEDLESS TO SAY WE WON'T BE GOING TO SUBWAY ANYTIME SOON! SO HE WAS FINALLY ABLE TO JUMP IN THE TRUCK TO GET US HOME (TWO DAYS LONGER THAN WE WERE SUPPOSE TO BE). THEN HE COMES DOWN WITH A HORRIBLE COLD & HAS DONE SOMETHING TO HIS BACK.....MY HANDS ARE SO RAW FROM WASHING THEM & USING GERM X ON THEM.....WE NEED SOME GOOD LUCK FROM SOMEWHERE....I CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE OF THIS BAD LUCK! KRYSTAL IS ON HER HEART MONITOR I WILL BE SO HAPPY WHEN THEY CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HER.
HOPE YOU ALL GOT OUT THERE TO VOTE TODAY.....TONIGHT IS AMERICAN IDOL NIGHT SO MOMMY IS FINALLY GOING TO TRY TO CREATE SOMETHING & VEG!