4 weeks later....

Four weeks ago I had yet another life changing event.....sure do wish these life changing events would start being really good ones instead!!! Something exciting or something that doesn't cause more pain would be great...It has been a crazy 4 weeks some good some bad...I've gotten to see so many of my old friends or heard from them, surrounded by family & loved ones daily...now they are doing "shift work" LOL Most people would be so happy to have someone do everything for them....well it is driving me absolutly insane!!!!!!!!!!!! Not that i could do a whole lot before this surgery, but at least it was a little something now & then.....I'm sick of this new diet I'm suppose to be on, still can't eat much of anything so still on liquid diet...good thing I love chocolate shakes. I'm still struggling to accept this huge scar that has ruined my body, just emotionally having a really hard time with everything right now. God bless my family & friends that are trying so hard to keep me smiling...but inside I am torn apart. Yes I am grateful to still have my life & watch my kiddos growin up so many things i would love to do with them but can't...I'm trying to avoid the cold that has seem to strike just about every one...it kills to cough or sneeze!!!!!!!!!!! I keep thinkin I should go into my craft room to make thank you cards for everyone that has been here for me since the surgery, but honestly I haven't even stepped foot in since we've moved here except to put new things in a huge pile that is callin my name to work with.....
Looking forward to brighter days with warm sunshine....maybe laying next to the pool in the sun having people wait on me won't seem so bad then..LOL... Hope you all have a great weekend & keep warm.

B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!!!!!

OMG...it is so beautiful out!! I was just looking at my thermometer & it is almost 60..hard to believe for middle of March...I can't wait for a few more weeks & it will be time to call the boys back to open up the pool for the season!!! Can't wait to do my layin down & relaxing sippin drinks next to the pool!!!! I did get up a little bit ago & sat on the deck with munchkin to take in some rays & get some fresh air......
It's been 3 weeks since that scary close call....I'm slowly healing, still in alot of pain, still basically on a liquid diet...I eat a little here & there but as soon as i do my stomach swells & causes so much discomfort....which they claim could be well over a year before I will be able to eat "normal"....luckily I have found something I enjoy drinking as meal replacements...its the Chocolate flavor Special K shake...they are $6 for 4 of the bottles which yes is costly but I have to have a high fiber diet & this at least has 5g per drink & has the other vitamins I am missing without eating normal. So I'm asking my friends & family if you see any coupons for them to please keep me in mind & send them to us... it would be greatly appreciated. I still have to say a huge thank you to my friends & family that are in & out of here all day long taking care of me above & beyond what they were already doing before....& for all the thoughts & prayers from my friends & family that can't be with us.....all of you have made a huge difference in my life & I truly appreciate it. I'm trying my hardest to keep my spirits up, as this was a huge altering life style change for me yet again....still having issues with the scar...but thanking god everyday that he let me live yet again to spend more time on this earth.
Tim got me out a couple times last week during the nice days to cheer me up...got to see a few old friends which was awesome!!! Made my day & made me realize how much i miss some....
Hope this finds everyone doing well & enjoying the sunshine....for my down south family hope the floods aren't affecting you & that the sun dries up everything for you quickly.
til next time LIVE LAUGH & LOVE.....

What a month.....

February was quite the month...beginning of Feb was my birthday & my true friends & family made it a totally amazing one!!! Second week we had an exhange student from NYC JROTC stay with us, basically we provided a bed because the JROTC kids had a packed schedual while here...it was an amazing experience for all of us...they couldn't believe how dark it is here at night because they are so used to all the lights, too funny when they said how do you drive here in such darkness....
then my dear sweet boy ended up with bronchitis...but mama is used to it so I caught it early so it didn't turn out as bad as normal thank god!!! Then finally winter vacation was here for the kids, they were so excited until....mama was knocking on deaths door!! Monday I was rushed into surgery, one we all thought might be my appendix, the surgeon told myself & my wonderful supporting family it should only take an hour....four and a half hours later i was rolled into ICU, my intestine had erupted & my body was filling with poison. I remember coming to & feeling the huge scar down my stomach & began freakin out & asking my husband was it cancer???? I couldn't get that thought out of my head, he was telling me no but again i knew something was really wrong because everyone had tears & my stomach had been completly cut open..they were only suppose to go through my belly button.............still not really understanding it all until they released me to home on Friday my family finally told me how close to death I was. I have a long road of recovery, having an extremely hard time dealing with this scar!!! I had 3 babies never had any scars or stretch marks & now I have this horrible thing on me that makes me feel like damaged goods....never again can i wear a bathing suit or will i ever expose myself to anyone. But I do have to say I have the most amazing family....they never left my side from the minute I was admitted to the hospital...the inlaws that called & sent the most amazingly beautiful bouquet of flowers, my friends with all there well wishes & all the gifts & love I have recieved through all of this & continue to receive, my JROTC family that has cooked meals so my husband doesn't have to & gifts to brighten my days. So a huge thank you filled with lots of love to all of you that have been there for me & my family through this time....one week down & at least 12 more of recovery to go.........