Happy Thanksgiving....

At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by the spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lightened the flame with in us....Loved this quote i just read & wanted to share it with you all!!!!
I am so saddend that my brother cannot be sitting at our thanksgiving table with us this year, he is one sick boy!!! Bronchitis in both lungs, Pneumonia in one lung & the flu on top of it!!! So he cannot be near anyone for a week!!! It saddens me because my brother is my strength to guide me through the hard times, my brother is one of my very best friends, my brother is my sanity when I need it most.....my brother is my everything!!! Those of you not blessed to have a sibling closeness like this just don't know what your missing out on....he & I really should've been twins...So please say a prayer for him that he gets through this & is on his way to a speedy recovery very soon!!!
I've been flattend by a horrible kidney infection & now have added two more meds to my daily regimen....praying it's not from the other meds that my kidneys are messing up on me...that would not be cool at all....so yup my mom & dad are a little over whelmed with both threre babies being down & out!!!
On a positive note (which is still so hard for me to find many positives lately)....I am so looking forward to spending time with the rest of my family & all my in-laws this week!!! Looking forward to Pizza night with my father in law ( he knows what food speaks to my heart) & I know what food speaks to his...Chocolate cream pie for breakfast....lol!!!
For the rest of you, even the ones making my life a living hell right now I wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving & that you are blessed to have someone to share it with!

sick of.....

I am so sick of the rain!!! It is such a cold raw rain out there right now....would love to be having an indian summer right about now, maybe that would cheer me up???? I am so sick of feeling like a prisoner in my own house, for a while I felt so safe here, but in the past couple weeks my "safe" feeling has left....I even have had to call the police, I've had someone stalking me & it really really sucks...it increases my stress levels which increases my pain levels...sick to my stomach all the time. It is so sad that when i want to take a shower I don't even feel safe....see it is a horrible scarey feeling because we have found out that there are a few people that Tim arrested have now been let out of jail & would love revenge...so i just can't put into words how horrible this is!!! I never thought i would have to live a life where i have to carry a loaded weapon with me at all times, keep loaded weapons in my house...exactly why i told tim i would never move to the city I didn't want to live like this. My children are frightend to know someone is watching us! It is tearing the family up....I do have to say I have an amazing friend that keeps a close eye on me when Tim has to work.
I see everyone is posting what they are thankful for...so I'm going to try to focus on the positive for a moment....I am thankful for the warmth of in our home, thankful tim has a good job, thankful for the good meds that get me through the day, thankful all our family that will be joined together next week, thankful I have the most amazing children that try so hard to make there mama smile everyday, so thankful of the people they have become, thankful for my TRUE REAL friends, of course can't forget my little four legged kids...
So today I am really going to try to pull myself out of the corner where I can't be watched & amount to something little...I hope but for now really enjoying the smell of my wonderful candles burning & scenting the house nicely....

bad blogger...

So it's been a while since i've updated, not that there is much to update because it's the same ole same everyday just about. I've hit a rut in life I guess, been surrounded by death losing some loved ones, the change in weather is not helping...I ache so badly that it's not even funny & my energy levels are so drained from the pain. Since the move I have not even created one thing, keep telling myself I'm going to get off the couch & try to make something, but never make it to the room. I'm scared most of the time to go into public with this whole swine flu thing. The two youngest drill team season is winding down, they've had the chance to travel to places that we have never taken them which is cool. Zac just got nominated Riffle team commander which is great, I am so proud of him!!!
Krystal has been in & out of hospital again....still no true answers. It's so frustraiting!!!! She is so excited though she leaves Sunday morning for New York City!!! Of course mom is scared to death something will happen while she's there & I'm sending her to the city...ugh!!! But I'm sending her with one of the cameras so she can take tons of photos to show us all the fun!! Maybe some year we will make it to NYC????
Right now I can see that it is snowing up on the mountains off in a far distance....I am so not ready for the yucky white stuff!!!Hope you all have a great weekend.....till next time LIVE, LAUGH, & LOVE... enjoy every moment with your loved one, because in a moment it can be taken away from you!

nine years ago...

Nine years ago today it was the same kind of weather, a sunny beautiful warm day....how do I remember this??? It was the day that I/we stood before our family & close friends & exchanged our vows.....So....Happy Ninth Anniversary to mr Tim!!! We survived the good & the bad so far....hard to believe it has been so long some days & others it feels like forever..lol....
Thank you for putting up with all the good & bad......hopefully someday it will turn into more good times than bad!!!
Also a very Happy Birthday to my mother in law tomorrow, we are thinkin of you!!!!

SNOW......

I so cannot believe these past two days...woke up yesterday to snow covered lawns & roads!!!! Then today spitting snow here in the mountains off & on all day, so disappointing to see snow in the middle of October!!! Needless to say I made chili in the crockpot (love that thing) & that's whats for dinner....well for a few of us. Brie & Zac are going out for pizza with Bries' boyfriend...thought it was really cool this boy suggested Zac go to, of course he & zac are friends too they're all in JROTC together. I am super proud of my son....I had an IEP meeting this morning for him & he is on honor roll only 4 points away in one class to be on HIGH honors that is his goal. He's really cracking down this year, he really wants to go to the police academy this summer, plus have to be passing to stay on Fire Dept. & if he stays on honor roll all year mom has to pay for drivers ed. !!! It is so worth it. Was a very proud moment to see Brie & Zacs pic in the newspaper this week for the drill competition two weeks ago...they are doing so good & finally those two have something in common & are really getting along...certainly a blessing in itself....I prayed this day would come.
Hope your all keeping warm:)
til next time LIVE, LAUGH & LOVE

toasty tuesday...

ok so I couldn't come up with a title, but it is nice & toasty warm in our house...it is so easy to heat seems how it's well insulated, we turn the thermostat to 62 & the house heats up to 74 no problem!! LOVE IT!!!! So much for a sunny beautiful day that the weather guy says we were suppose to have! Today even though it has taken me nearly 3 1/2 hrs to do I made my family some homemade cookies...it has been so long & I know they are missin the homemade goodies I used to make so hopefully this will put a smile on there face when they all get home tonight! Had to do something while waiting for the pool guys to get here & close down the pool for the winter...what a dreadful thought...WINTER.....YUCK!!!!

About the photos.....first one is lil miss Munchkin...she is our little spoiled princess!!! On Tims bday she was patiently waitin for a small piece of her daddys cake....i couldn't resist taken this photo!!! It's a face her mama & daddy love dearly...

The second photo is the JROTC drill/color guard team...I am one proud mama.....our team had 6 competitions on saturday in old town maine...they took home a FIRST place trophey, 4 Second place & one Third place....AWESOME JOB!!!!!! Most all these cadets are new to these teams including our two youngest....They competed against several other teams, they have I believe 5 more competions coming up.

One last little blurb....a very happy birthday to Bryan...our daughters very sweet boyfriend!!!

happy october...

I am so happy that September is over only for the simple fact of so many birthdays in the month!!! The photo is one of the many of Krystals senior pics...this happens to be one of my favorites!! She really enjoyed being head chef last night & did a great job. Zac & Brie are off to old town Maine for there first jrotc drill/color guard meet....Good luck to them & the rest of the team. So don't know what to do with ourselves now when no kids are home, Krystal has a sweet boyfriend & when he's not in class at night & they don't work they try to spend some time together, still under parents supervision of course. I really hate that I have to let my kids grow up & start to let go...this is so hard for me I cry everytime. Maybe someday it will get easier....if anyone has any suggestions on how letting go can be any easier I'd appreciate the suggestions..lol. Hope you all have a great weekend....